ting & yin.

i hate this. i really hate it. i wrote so much and closed the bloody window by accident. all the bloody kazaa's fault. losers. people are losers. everyone doesnt deserve to live. they should wallow in their self-pity and cry out to me for help. damn it man. screw the goats.

bloody hell did it rain. now why do i care. stupid news. stupid iraq. kill them all. enslave them. make them beg for mercy, before silencing them. blasted head. and my two silly friends were using their webcam to chat just now. irritating.

fantasy. magic. spellcasting. mage. im into all that now. must have been the 3 warcraft books which addicted me. what future. i cant feel anything. im losing it. wave a hand and watch mystical energies dance around your fingers. rain come wash over me. sparked. spaked. did something just spark? i dunno... really. im lost. i love being lost. gives me a sense of hopelesness. i hate security. i hate perfection. how can anyone ever desire perfection. for it is the very opposite of our essence. gone is the wind. gone is the rain.

silly show. warped. and i watched it twice. one day after another. silly show. for the king. bonkers. there. she said it. she's going bonkers. good for her. i dont care, honestly.

lets face it. life is unfair. life is boring but beautiful. joker card on my table. silly deck of cards. where is it. oh. my sister took it just now. whatever for.

bastard. i cant believe i actually closed the previous window by accident. what the h*ll.

i feel like im falling. not in love. but. sick. silly wall. dont like walls. remind me of that creepy show. what was it called. the phone oh yes. the phone. stupid show. at least that actress was pretty.

what am to do. never say goodbye.

we met we laughed we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.

a voice from the past, joining yours and mine, adding up the layers of harmony.

warcraft 3. great game. i love it. complex yet miraculously a child's play. i have yet to master it. blizzard. they are wonderful. intricately written and debugged.

silly shane. went overseas. no one to lan with now, other than caleb and jr. pretty good players, actually. better than most others. in fact, i think we're good. near unbeatable. played with this malay guy the other day. trashed the shit out of him. game of the year.

vida give me back my fantasy

let us march forth and embrace the dawn of a new era. hopes, visions, dreams will all be fianlly fulfilled. anyway, let me end off now.

i cant. yes i cant. no i dont mean im a cunt so shaddup. i cant. yes i cant end off. sad worse, coming from a guy. i cant. imagine me crying and kneeling. i cant doc, i cant. no matter how hard i try, i cant doc, i cant. now what the hell is wrong with me. i give up. surrender.